Mid 30's Crisis or "The Blues"
by: Nadia Sweeting
I must say what's on my heart. Here it goes......
Feeling confused and slightly frustrated with my thoughts and position today - more explicit, my position in my life. I am extremely thankful to god for granting me another day on this beautiful place we call Earth. I woke up this morning all confused for the lack of a better word. Confused about WHY, WHAT, WHEN.
Why do I feel this way?
What am I doing?
When did this feeling start?
The constant tug of being a single mother, career woman, sister, daughter, girlfriend and friend is ....not sure of the word here. I love my life and all the people who support me and why do I feel this way right now. I am exhausted and feel as if I've lost my passion and I'm searching for a path back to ME and what makes me happy. I was out of work (transitioning) for 8 months and during that time, I made it a point to build up my professional skills. I recently started a contract position with a Fortune 500 company and all is great, but why do I feel jumbled? I CAN most certainly do the work and is up for the challenge, but why do I fee jumbled? I am exhausted and blurred.
Whatever I'm feeling, makes me want to breakdown and cry. Totally dislike feeling this way. I am not depressed because I have faith in God that things will soon turn around. I have so many things to be thankful about - an amazing daughter; awesome significant other; great family and supportive friends. This is all on ME. I remain in constant prayer and know that my god is walking with me during this time.
Maybe it's mid 30's crisis who knows! Is there anyone else experiencing what I am feeling?
Changing my name to Blues Clues today
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